Give Me A Note, Because I Don't Want CHANGE

I feel like, I used to crave change.
Who wants the same boring routine and life? Ew.
I used to think that I was a girl who was so keen to finish school and explore the world.
To CHANGE the world even. 
But fuck. It's scary isn't it?

I think the idea of things being different, and being out of our comfort zones, scares us.
Most of us. 
Some people don't get as emotionally attached as others.
I think I'm one of the emotionally attached idiots.
Or, I'm just comfortable. 
And I am. 

I enjoy going to work.
I get on with my bosses, and my co workers. 
I know most of the customers.
I know what I'm doing, and I'm used to it.
To change, and start over, something I've already done once, is scary.

I love living at home, and always having someone there to talk to.
Always having someone to rely on, and know where you are. To care.
I feel comfortable at home. I can be myself, I can be naked.
I have people who think about me.
Who feed me.
Who help me.

I've gotten used to this lifestyle, and there's no way I want to live it forever.
The idea of progressing through life excites me!
But I want someone to share it with.
I don't want to do it alone.
So maybe it's not so much CHANGE that I'm afraid of.
I just don't want to make big changes, on my own.
I'm not that kind of GAL.
Which I'm either going to CHANGE, or accept that, that's who I am.

I still want to CHANGE THE WORLD.
And explore it.
And I will. 
But maybe having someone to share it with, wouldn't be a bad idea.
Maybe it would make it that much sweeter.
So watch out world, Change is coming, whether we like it or not.