In Love With The Past

It's tough to go through big changes. Especially break ups.
I recently met up and rekindled things with my ex-boyfriend, but not to the extent of getting back together, we're just taking things slow and seeing how they go.

But it was almost too easy to slip back into the old ways and habits. We knew, and still know each other so well, so it's hard not to. But it's been roughly 3 months since he's contacted me. He also broke up with me. There were various reasons, mainly because we were fighting quite often, he was sick of making me cry all the time, and to be honest, he wasn't ready for a serious relationship, no where near. And was I? I thought I was, but thinking about it now, I feel like a 3 month break, as hard as it was at first, was what we needed. Even if it means that we don't work out. We've both had time to think things over, and we're both keen to see how we go as we are now, but whether one of us decides we only missed the idea of us, or whether one of us decides we really do love each other, at least we gave it a shot either way. At least we won't always wonder 'what if'.

It's tough though. To know if it's going to work out, or if we're both just in love with the past. In love with the comfortableness of each other. In love with the ideal couple we both imagine we can be. In love with the good memories. In love with familiarity. In love with sex. In love with the idea of love.

Am I in love with the past? Or can love really work... the second time around.