Chaos & Pretty Skies

My life's becoming a blur of limited sleep, deafening alarms that go off way too soon and snatch me from my dreams, quick showers, convenient food and hardly any time for fun.
Its getting to the point, where I wake up most mornings feeling disorientated and confused.
I forget what day it is and have a mini panic attack, struggling to remember where I'm meant to be or what I'm meant to be doing.
I'm always behind on sleep and I'm finding it extremely hard to catch up.
I try to make myself have early nights but there's so many things I want to do during the night that I don't have time to do in the day anymore.
I miss sleeps ins.
I miss movie days.
I miss having a social life.
But I don't mind the money.
I'm currently working roughly 42 hours a week, and it's starting to take it's toll already.
Welcome to the Real World, as my father so lovingly points out.
He'll never be satisfied that I work enough.
Even if I worked 24 hours a day, 7 days a week, he would still question whether I'm doing enough.

It does amaze me, however, that even when your life can seem so busy and full, all the little things that make you feel genuinely happy and appreciative of the world.
Every afternoon, as I'm driving home, no matter how many rude customers I served, bitchy co workers I had to deal with, how tired and sad I feel, or how stressful and draining my day was, I am always at awe at the beauty of the sky.
For whatever reason, looking at the sun set in the distance, and the colours it wraps through the clouds, and the light flooding through the gaps, always, without failure, brings me such happiness.
Just looking at it!
Just admiring the beauty and thinking how fortunate we are to live in such a beautiful place.
It wipes my mind of any negative thoughts and literally fills me with some sort of euphoria.
& Isn't that strange?
That such a small thing, that most people overlook, brings me such a boost, in the darkest or dimmest of times.
It's just nice to think, how when your life is a bit chaotic, there will always be beauty and there will always be room for happiness, no matter where you find it.